vent here

not asking for answers.... just need to breathe

drinking water instead of eating dessert of some sort

kind of cranky, lol

I cranky ate last night. (already incorporated into my food journal). I have a stomach ache from it this morning. During breakfast I spilled my cereal bowl all over my comforter. As if doing laundry wasn't already a hassle. And then forgot the duvet here.

And when I rinsed it in the tub last night, the water ran yellow for the longest time- clean water turning yellow and brown when it hit the duvet. Gross.

DAY 1 DAY 1 DAY 1 DAY 1

I ate my healthy choice. Cajun chicken and shrimp steamer (mmmm).

Meeting Tim downtown to hang out. His last text "No I'll eat since you're already eating. We can just meet somewhere in Saratoga and maybe get some dessert or something"

Must. Refrain. From. Dessert.

Coffee? Do I get coffee to refrain? It's day one- I can't even go with a mini sorbet (the "best" thing I could think of on Broadway)

And mind you, this is the last person I can openly go "I cant Im on a diet" with. Tim's like, 250. He'd punch me in the face. Haha.

I would get a coffee/tea. That way you don't make the other person feel bad for getting something.

I have a dress on...my legs are so thick...especially right above the kneecap

not a good look

left Cassie's promotion at 8:45 by myself...drove home super fast (lol) so I wouldn't drive through somewhere and get crap

couldn't push through

had a bowl of cheerios

Well except for both of us eating last night when we weren't supposed to, we were doing pretty well. And you're eating a lot less calorie wise than I am I think. I mean, your cottage cheese is way better than my subway.

But with the right amount of mayo and no dessert, I should be in the 1200-1300 range.

Had a fine night sleep- 1030ish-610ish?

Woke up with huge stomachache and worse headache.

I assume I'm probably dehydrated. Will work on it today. Actually I know I'm dehydrated. First week at work I always had a water bottle or 2. The past week it's been coffee in the morning, nothing with lunch, nothing with dinner.

I should be well on my way to hydrated by the time you wake up.

I forgot it was only Thursday when I called (thought it was Saturday, duh)

grab a pack of water bottles or a gallon and keep refilling a bottle.

I'm back on full force...I didn't feel good after eating that french bread.

and with all of the fresh foods I've been eating, it feels like such a waste!!!

because of bread with butter??? silly, huh

having a TOUGH time....like having an angel and a devil on my shoulders!!

I've been doing so good, and then I cave!!

I need to stop.

Last night I took Cass and Jake out to dinner, with that need to take them somewhere, do something feeling. They didn't ask, or really want to and yet I spent money and ate poorly!!



I think I do it now because, A) Dad takes them out B) I want to have fun, too

my issue

I told them maybe we'll stop spending so much money on restaurant's and keep it so we can do stuff like Magic Mt (they want to go).....

Let's just see if mom can do it.

Rather than going out, you should have the kids go online and pick out recipes they want to make. Spend the time making grocery lists and cooking!

I've always wanted to have the time to do that- to learn how to make simple dishes that look gourmet. Meals, sides, etc. Cassie would love it! And Im sure the others will get involved. You'll spend $$ on groceries, but not soda and crap.

exactly what I am doing today


isn't that weird? lol

So jealous! I would love to do that but its too expensive when you're only cooking for one. I would love to know how to cook complete meals start to finish homemade.

Oh no...

I'm overeating today and don't think I'll push through tonight. Its too early to go to bed and I want something. Ugh.

julie...what the fuck man?

Woke up with a stomachache.

Taking a light day.

my legs are actually heavy.....like they are filled to their capacity.

I probably ate an extra 600 calories today.

Mad.

I basically got stitches and threw a food tantrum. I'm 100% positive I undid the last 2 weeks of dieting. Ridiculous.

Will need to be super strict for rest of summer if I'm going to get anywhere because I'm basically starting from 0 again.

HOLY SHIIII its hot in here.

I might need to move down to the basement soon where it's cooler- it's 82 degrees at 10 pm inside the guest house. I'm wearing boxers (that's it).

What suuuucks about that is a) everything I have is in the guest house and b) the internet only works in the guest house.

I tried turning the air on and it was flashing "cool" with the setting on 74 (just aiming for tolerable) but nothing actually kicked on.

ask around if someone has a fan...maryanne might!!